I’ve started a Bible study recently called, “A Woman of Moderation”. It is a study designed to help women break the bondage food has over their lives. As I began the study, I knew that I had problems controlling my eating. I use food for comfort and have been on many diets in my life with varying degrees of success. This study is different, rather than focusing on weight loss it looks at recognizing when one is being disobedient or rebellious against God.
I begin the study expecting the usual challenges that I have encountered in diets past. I really tried to focus on being obedient in my eating rather than losing weight. I noticed, as when dieting, I had my weak times of the day. I noticed the difference when I attempted to address my weakness through a desire to be obedient to God. Suddenly it was like I had no control whatsoever.
I would tell myself that I needed to stop eating or that I didn’t need that last biscuit. Each time it was like I was talking to a rebellious child and found I was completely ignored. It seemed like my flesh had taken over and was on auto-pilot. Thoughts came to mind like, “What’s the big deal?” “What are you going to do about it?” “But I want it!” What a willful child!!
Afterwards I felt horrible. Did I not love God enough to pass up a biscuit? The guilt I was feeling made me seriously consider giving up. Maybe this just wasn’t the study for me. Thankfully I have an accountability partner that I emailed about my challenges. Just the act of writing out my guilt and frustrations helped me to look more closely at the situation.
What is so different about this study versus diets I’ve been on? Is there anything un-Biblical about the process the study is taking me through? What I am discovering is that I have truly entered into battle to break the bondage I am in. It’s not just about what I do or do not eat, it is about my relationship with food, loving it, lusting after it, and turning to it instead of God when in need of comfort. I had not taken seriously the bondage I was in. I expected Satan to just say, “Oh, okay. I’ll leave you alone now.”
“If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door. It desires to have you, but you must master it.” (Genesis 4:7)
God would not have said this to Cain if Cain did not have the ability to master his sin. Cain chose not to and instead killed his brother, Able. We, too, can master our sin. We must first make the choice.
The first thing that really seemed to help after coming to this realization was confessing my sins to God. Of course, He already knew my sin. The act of speaking the truth to Him rather than trying to cover up my sin with lies, justifications, and excuses seemed to lift a weight.
“But He gives a greater grace therefore it says, ‘God is opposed to the proud, but gives grace to the humble.’ Submit therefore to God resist the devil and he will flee from you.” (James 4: 6-7)
For the first time, I feel like the devil has fled – at least in this area. This is not to say that things are now easy, far from it. However, if God had given me over to my stubbornness before, I feel like He has now welcomed me back.
What are the things that we need to confess? What are those areas that we are yet in bondage? Are we willing to engage in the necessary battle in order to place God in His proper place as Lord and sovereign, King of our lives?
Jennifer Young, LPC is a Local & Telephone Christian Counselor. For more information visit www.Thy-Kingdm.com


